Out Of Sheer Boredom

Its 1:30 in the morning and I'm awake (as usual) but this time it is because of a different reason. Its probably because all I did during the day was, NOTHING!! Yes, absolutely nothing! I just lay on my bed all day like a fruit on a fruit tray (though I'm quite sure i wont be eaten up!! lol). I'm sharing my 'new' room with my dad tonight and his snores are another reason why I'm writing this. Its almost a full moon and a clear sky outside. And, I'm writing in the moonlight(God save my eyes). I'm writing, not typing on my PC(well, i am now, but not at 1 in the morning). And I'm so bored that I'm giving such stupid details. All my friends have slept (apparently) and don't feel like switching on the PC this late, so don't know about my other nocturnal friends(read friend) lol!! And I know that you know that I'm talking about you.. :P... lol.. sorry!!

Ok, honestly, I cant think of anything I can write about. I was going through a friend's orkut profile today and among his favorite movies he had mentioned a movie named '10 Things I Hate About You'. I haven't seen the movie but the name just grabbed all my attention. There are times when you come across some thing and even if its of no importance at all, it gets registered in your mind. And this is something that has probably happened with me. I am quite happy, it has though. I mean I will write 10 things I don't like about a person, and will be able to get away with it, with no hard feelings(hopefully). lol..


So here are the 10 Things I Hate About 'You'

1> I hate it when you pull my cheeks and call me 'Rs 40 a Kg' lol, and run away, knowing I would never be able to catch you for a revenge!!

2> I hate it when you talk about me, with people you know i don't like to be discussed with. and make sure that I know you are talking about me!!

3> I hate the way you make those stupid noises while drinking coffee, tea, cold drinks etc... i feel like killing you at such times, you irritate me so much.

4> I hate it when you start digging your nose while thinking(well, i love clicking your pictures at such times and show it to everybody.. lol). And by the way, i have all of 'em saved.

5> I hate the way you ride your bike and drive your car,and almost hit me with it. I hate you for that one time you banged your bike into me!! I was on bed for a week!! You got to b more careful, after all I'm my parents only younger daughter!! lol...

6> I hate it when you get away with everything you do, with those stupid, funny faces you make, and everything comes on me!!

7> I hate the way you eat, dropping everything around, while watching those stupid sport channels (the cheer leaders actually :P)!

8> I hate the fact that you don't talk to me when you have taken me out for lunch and flirt around with every second girl you see. And when I talk to somebody(some guy), you give me that stupid deadly stare of yours, telling me that I'm not supposed to be doing that, even if that 'somebody' happens to be my friend. That is the only time you realize, you are here to talk with me, not the hundreds of those girl friends of yours!!

9> I hate it when you and your 'ex'(whom I don't know personally) call me at the same time(one on cell and the other on land line) describing the reason behind your latest fight. And giving me reasons(which of course I don't need) about how one cannot be friends with their exs'... And later again call me at the same time, telling me that you cant live without each other! Lord!! You are stupid!!

10> I hate you because I know you wont be reading this and even if you will, you wont be able to reply. I hate the very fact that you are not here with me, giving me all the more reasons to hate you!!


P.S. : Where ever you are, one thing that I want you to know is that I really miss you. I hate to admit it though!! :P

Hmmm......

Its 3:25 in the morning, and as usual I’m trying to sleep. Watching ‘Courage, the Cowardly Dog’ on Cartoon Network!! Though I’m really not sure if I’m watching it. Its almost a clear sky. Can see so many sparkling stars. Oh… those guys just made Courage the Sheriff. It’s a little cold, and I’m in my shorts and t-shirt, sitting on the clod stairs. Thinking, if I should really be thinking!!

I should have gone to DAV to get my pass certificate. Its been long, I haven’t talked to most or I shall say all of my friends!! Should have called them!! Why the hell is this site(orkut) not responding?? May be I have a reply. Reply, this late, I don’t think so!! But I’m worried. Should I really be worried?? I don’t think so. Some how I am.. hope you are fine!!

Sitting here I realize that I'm not me any more. but did I really wanted to change? No! I was so happy being me!! As Kody defines(even though he hardly knows me), a 'happy go lucky weirdo!!' lol. Weird, it really is. Just about a week back, I was some one else, and now!! I don't even know myself anymore. Angry, frustrated, don't feel like talking to any one, whining!! And I'm not liking it!!

Aah... its 3:35 now. Ed, Edd and Eddy. Never liked this cartoon much. Its strange, I'm sitting outside and watching TV through the window of our living room!! I dont feel like going inside to change the channel. Its so suffocating in there. i'm shivering now. I wonder if I'd be writting, how would my handwriting turn out?? I can hardly type!! Stupid thing to wonder about!! I think this entire post is stupid. And still, I dont stop typing. And I'm quite sure, I'd put up this post on my blog!! Another stupidity, but atleast I know I'm on my way to being my 'normal' self!!lol

'I'm in love with a stripper' (T Pain), the song's just ending. I really like its tune. Really melodious and sweet...

Aah... My favorite now - Behind blue eyes.. OK, I have to admit, cant take the cold anymore and I really need a hot cup of coffee. I think I'll move inside. I'll open the window beside the settee(where i sleep these days), in the living room!!

Almost 4 now, and I have my mug of black coffee with me. The stupid site is still not responding!! I'm quite snugly wrapped in my blanket. And still, soft chilly breeze is flowing through my window. Some lights just lit up on the hill across. I wonder what do people do waking up this early. And this is quite strange, because even I'm wide awake... What ever it is, I'm sure they wont be writing something this stupid!! Lol!!

I finally changed the channel. Its MTV now. Strange songs!! Most of 'em, I've never heard before!! Come to think of it. I switch on the TV either to watch cartoons or Discovery and stuff or HBO/Star movies... Did i hear 'how boring' ?? Lol!!

Bike, hmm... Thats what I want to do!! Go for a ride, some where far!! Or may be all I really need to do is, to talk to some one/ any one, face to face!! But then, I suck at it!! Some how I can't tell any one how I feel!!

I'd rather be cracking stupid, not at all funny jokes, and make fum of myself. lol!! May be that's why I'm writing!! But i still am not sure if I'm writing what I feel. Or is it just some stupid non-sense coming right out of my head!!

Star Movies, hmm.... Living with a stranger. I kind of like this movie. The sky is absolutely cloudy again. I think its going to start raining again any moment!! I wish it doesn't. I don't think my mum would approve of me dancing in the rain at 4:15 in the morning!! Gosh!! Its 4:15!! Even if I don't sleep at this time, I do lay down on the settee with the lights, TV and lappy switched off. The lights are switched off though!!

Its 4:30 now. The site is still encountering some problem. I'm feeling a bit hungry now. Strange, but true. May be I'd get some cornflakes for myself!!

I'm still watching the same movie. Its the second time I'm watching it. He's on his way back home from the hospital. He looks so confused. What if I forget everything someday?? How would I feel? SUFFOCATED!! More than now. All 'strange' people trying to tell me how they are related to me. Would I trust/believe 'em?? I wont have ny other choice! God knows why I'm thinking this!!

Its 4:42 now. A few more lights lit up. Sanjauli is still as brightly lit, as at 8 in the evening!! The hill looks really amazing. The mist, adds to its perfection...

Perfection, as Kenny calls it, an 'illusion' !! Probably, because we can never be satisfied with anything our entire life!! may it it is just 'engraved on our DNA'!! Lol... You can call me a copy cat for that!! We always want more and better!! Probably that is why, I would like to quote(some one), 'we end up screwing the most PERFECT moments'!! Lol...

Its 5 now. And I fee like dancing!! lol.. I know I'm crazy!! And should be 'locked up in a mental asylum', as some one says!! lol... The sky has started to light up, I can hear the first bird sing, sitting on the plum tree outside!! It looks beautiful... Beauty, a word that is so true and untrue at the same time.. surreal....

Aah.. My granpa just woke up. I'd better be going and makin some tea for him. Later, I think I would go for a long walk. Long walk with dear old Doodle. Gosh! He'll be turning 11 this august!! Don't know how I'll live in the hostel without him. I must stop now...

What else do I say....

P.S. : If any one really read this, I'm sorry for the crap..

OK, its six, and I'm back from the walk. I don't think I have much to say now... Except fr , it was really beautiful...

bye.. and thank you fr going through this post!! Do leave a comment if you read this!!